My best friend and I, as of yesterday, aren't friends anymore. We've been best friends for a year and a half, lived at each others houses, finished each other sentences, we were sisters in every way.
I was the one to break it off.. I'm horrible, i know... I've never broken off a frienship before, but this time she just went too far. I was being ignored, she wasn't my crying shoulder, she put walls between us, deleted everything I posted onto her wall, blew me off for other friends, would never return a call or text, sorry but thats not how best friends are.
I wrote her a letter, in form of a facebook message, didn't seem okay to text it, but she ignores my calls so why bother calling? Facebook messaging may be impersonal to some, but at least it was read.. Because when she completely looked right past me, I knew she recieved it. Although, she never did respond to that either.. I was corgile, nice, but firm. I made my point get across.
In the aftermath of it all, i'm still hurt even though I don't wanna be. I wanna say i'm fine, i don't miss her, don't need her. When in reality I do miss her, but the girl i used to know, not the girl i know now. I did lose my best friend, and that hurts it does, but in reality i lost my best friend along time ago... And i don't deserve to have a best friend that makes me feel worthless and not good enough to even be her friend. I lost something yes, but i believe in the long run i will gain so much more without her.
Bipolarly yours,
Beach Blondie
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